ELEmeNTS
These are a series of self portraits, that depict Despair and Resilience, in the face of self doubts as migrants that arise because of micro aggressions and my personal tragedies.
Sometimes answers to the tangible issues and questions we possess in life may remain unanswered . It penetrates the mind, deeper than we might think. Certain separations, changes, rejections, migrations, dependencies and voids cannot be resolved with just logic. I didn’t understand how to feel better among the whirlwind of life changes happening in my life, dealing with a personal loss, along with migrating half way across the world for my husband’s work, to a new land where nothing was familiar to me, feeling like an outsider.
Before I was slowly losing sight from the contrast of things, I got a sweet distraction from above in the name of ‘Snow’. As someone who was seeing snow for the first time as grown woman, for me it didn’t matter where I was, what I was doing or what next, I was filled up to the brim and melted with the snow. Like surrendering to the nature. Something so effortless could move mountains within us.
How at times we can be strangers to ourselves, struggling to find a connection between our choices and compromises. This intricate dance between our hopes and disappointment, flow and lack of energy.
Most of us migrants might feel similar emotions and experiences. The sense of unbelonging keeps shadowing. There are deeper meanings in collective emotions. Like a nobody who’s everybody.
Although the journey is in hopes of a better future, along the way, we lose some important pieces of ourselves that formed us into who we are. But we’re not done forming, It will be us deciding who we will be in the end.
